Ungrateful
Ungrateful
I’m a at a low point. I know that I’m wrong. I see the ugly in people too often these days. The arrogant. The entitled. The selfish and narcissistic. I see it on the roads. I see it in the customers I deal with daily. I see it on TV. I see it on Substack. I do not like this broken world. I do not like most the people. I do not like my country. I do not even like how many Christians are acting. I am just so sick of it all.
I am angry at God for making me live this life. I don’t want it. I f’n hate it, I feel bad for wishing away a gift like life but I do. I feel like a spoiled little b*** complaining when 2/3rds of the world has it much worse than I do. It does not help to acknowledge that I should be grateful. That I am lucky. That I am blessed. I am all that and I am tired. I am sorry God that I do not value what you have given me but I don’t. I do not find joy in each new day. I do not rest easy when I come home. I am restless and sad.
I understand, people are allowed to hurt us if they are powerful. You’re not alone 🙏🏾
You are not alone in these feelings and thoughts . This world can get very dark. I have found that finding beauty in the world takes some effort but It is there if we look . Find art that inspires you and that leads to people who can inspire you. I find Humanity to be very conflicted. Both beautiful and profane .